I am writing this to exorcise some of my demons, also to give thanks to those who i have met on my journey and in the hope that someone may gain, some of the understanding I have gained along the way. I know this may seem somewhat arrogant of me, only just recently starting out in a lovely relationship with a significant other but as I come to realise it is more about the relationship one has with themself, therefore as I have known me for 40 years, it is quite apt.
Love, evades noone, it is not this thing that we search for in other people, finding people to love us and all will be well. Love just is. I remember reading this in one of Iyanla Vanzants books some years ago. I didnt fully understand it so I reads numorous other books stating the same thing. They all said that Love was all around us. My problem was that I was focussing on the media version who was said to be tall dark and handsome and would whisk me off on a white stallion. It was only last week when the penny dropped for me that 'love is all there is' and when you perceive through love you see things the way they are meant to be seen.
Love, for me is the feeling I have when I have woken up, meditated and started to write. Love envelopes me when I write and I am not insecure (at least not whilst I am writing) I am confident, I am able and I feel a sense of achievement. It is not a feeling that I feel on a daily basis, although someties when I am tuned in to my inner writer, I feel, i wish it was something that I could do as a job because I would truly be in ecstacy if all I had to do was shower and write from nine til five, with a an hour teaching children to embrace their writing (universe hear my cry).
Another facet of love is the relationships that I have in my life.